In my head as i sit here with a broken heart,
I think about all the guys that have potential, the only problem.
THEY are NOT YOU.
The tears are forcing their way out, but I’m trying just as hard to keep them in. Maybe crying will help me feel better, but I’ve done it all…I’ve cried in sadness, screamed in anger… and as much as I wish i didn’t feel the way I did…I cant take back the fact that I love this guy.
and now…it’s all gone.
I can keep saying that things will change, I can make promises that this time will be better, but you can only say and do so much before it stops meaning anything more than JUST WORDS.
I am still here…
Keeping a small piece of happiness that was once “US”.
I’ll never regret anything, from this experience, i learned to cherish, to have patience, to never give anyone your everything until the other person is willing to do the same.
phasing in, phasing out.
I’m on the edge of tears. I’m on the edge of insanity.
Most of all… I’m broken in shards.
There’s a few problems with walking away.
one. leaving what you know and had behind.
two. venturing into the unknown.
I mean, it wouldn’t be such a hard decision to walk away from something toxic, and something that makes you unhappy. Its kind of a refreshing thought to go ahead and try something new. Key word here is…MOVING ON
I love this guy, I’m not even sure if i want to be with him because I have feelings or its because I gave my all to this one person. You already know that once you give someone you’re everything, when things no longer work out you’re basically leaving hurt but also with nothing. So, i dont know whats scarier right now… The fact that I’ll be going back out to the unknown or being left with nothing.
my pride. gone
my self-respect. gone
my dignity. stripped away.
my heart. irreperable
I feel tears coming on right now, because once upon a time, we had fun together, once upon a time we laughed, we had inside jokes. Knowing that soon, i wont have anything left but memories that will seem like a nightmare haunting me every night.
Just about a year ago around this time, i thanked god for giving me such a wonderful person in my life…that i would never do anything wrong ever…and i would cherish every moment…
It’s like i failed.
Because I feel as if i did everything wrong.
Ryan Tedder | “The Look”
"Is it possible maybe
To have a love so strong
That nothing could ever compare."